saying what i feel about you is hard;

you got me stuck in this hole;

i cant get out of it;

im so crazy for you;

i crave for your loving everyday;

just wanting to be with you;

to hang and chill;

just to be myself with you;

praying to God that i can get along with you;

you're amazing in everyway;

you may not realize it;

but you truly;

already do;

have a place in my heart;.

~Fucked Love~

Lying awake

Trying to think of words to say

My actions are starting to speak louder

As time quickly ticks away.

I still haven't realized what I want to really say

My anger is built up inside

Dying to leave.

Somehow it doesn't want to let go

Cherishing what is left of the past.

Leaving scars everytime I think about it

Tearing me up

Inside and out

Fucking up everything in it's path.

Not letting me forget

Everything that we've both done to each other

In a cruel way

I think I've realized what I wanted to say.

I want to say that...

I still love you no matter what

Despise what we've gone through

Even though you're my past

Those memories will hopefully

Never fade away.

Love.

Love isn't just a feeling.

Its a drug that I just can't let go of.

Despite the shit I've gone through

I still keep searching

For that someone

To hold and care for

I crave it more and more

Each time I meet A so called "Special Guy"

I want him to think

That I'm his everything

That no matter what

I'd do anything for him

In the end I find someone else

But now I think I've found someone

That I can relate to

Someone that makes me smile in an odd way

But it's still a good way

Even if we've been through hell

I'd still never let him go

Eh. A poem.

lay me down to rest

let the blood filled tears roll down my face

as you watch the crimson run down my hand

from the little cutting sessions that i use to have

don't feel guilty for what you made me do

let the blood show the sorrows you put me through

of your hitting sessions with me

as your tears fall

you slowly taste the blood that is on my arms

as i lay in my coffin your body begins to change

blood runs down your arms and eyes

slowly building up in your body

as you shake and scream for help

no one is listening to you

they know what hell you've put me through

your body gets weaker

you tumble to the ground

laying beside me in my coffin you grip onto me

saying sorry for what all you've done to me

your whispers and screams

people still cant hear you

you slowly die right next to me

as my funeral is still attending

they lower me and you into the ground

you're still gripping onto me

in the ground we are

you're still holding onto me

as we unite together forever